the cure for all of everything

so I don't know how many of you guys know me like that- probably a few
but for those who don't, you wouldn't know that I'm very sporadic with my energy.

Well its pretty predictable actually. Well it seems to me to be, and I guess that's who it matters most to, I mean, you guys only have to deal with me in clips, but I'm always dealing with myself, and sometimes *perhaps* resting, within my. Self

anyway, enough philosophy and hopeful words for now, this is real world applicable stuff we're talking about here.

I figured out that what I do is, I use about 4 or 16 or 18 days (usually an even number) of energy ALL in one day (and its quite a day those days!). I mean, this day, to continue a thought that I started in parenthesis, this day is quite fantastic. You come across me and wham you're happy to be alive, because I'm just radiating 11 days worth of energy at once.

Watch out if I shoot you a glance, because it's probably going to put you at a peace that you're not ready for, or energize you towards action that you don't have time for, or perhaps just make you walk away and say who the hell is that guy. It depends on the day, because not only my energy fluctuates, but like most of us, also the quality and focus and feeling of this energy.

So those days (like today) I call everyone I know, wish them the best, talk to their mom on the phone for 15 minutes about their sons ex-girlfriend who just came back to him and now is living out of their house, and man the son and this girl need to find a place because she's got enough trouble as it is,
whatever else.

And I do 25 out of 37 of the things on my to do list.
Okay., so I use up ALLL LLLL that wonderful energy.
And then.

I crash. For days. I'm tired, I'm pained, (sore) and strained (brain) and forgetful and beat myself up (rhymes with brain and strain- how about, zane!)

So, days go by when I'm fighting (an odd number of days, based upon how many days worth of energy I had used before. say I used 26 days of energy, I have 25 days recuperation time- as well, I did use the energy meant for that very same day as well)

so these pained days, these challenging days, the days when its' not easy as pie, I guess they say these difficult days are when you make all of the progress that you then cover in that glorious day (or perhaps its days or weeks or months, but for the sake of the story, its only one day of the world bending to my very touch) (and perhaps they only say that thing that they say anyway, to make those tedious days less tedious!)

so I don't want to be sore. So I do a lot of yoga. But I don't want to do yoga, so I lay down. Then I fall asleep and I don't want to fall asleep so I get up and I eat, then I do something else and something else. And say my mantra. And then its time for work or something, where I go and do my job and say my mantra and try to get inside my hip, which is usually what's paining me, and my neck, which is usually doing the same, and relax them. and I say my mantra. and then I go home and go to sleep and do it again

And man is that a hard cycle to break. Wake up in pain and with your mind already racing, or just tired. And its hard to motivate yourself to do that yoga in the way that will get you really running on all cylinders (and then some perhaps?)
(granted I've learned how to do it, but that's not the story now, we're talking about NOT doing it. Plus in this last paragraph, I’m using the second person singular, you. not me. So forget about the early morning walks to clear the mind or the whathaveyous.)
NO. We're talking about the days of fighting and forgetting that we know the answer

well, i guess to be gramatically correct, it would be you know the answer. but now i'll switch back to first person singular, to avoid not confusing anyone.

Hopefully I'm not alone in this forgetting.
Well on second thought, hopefully I am, I hope that everyone reading this learns their lesson the first time. But I for one, have not
anyway, what am I getting at? Who am I talking about?

I have discovered the answer to these lazy "I don't want to" days!
These 9 or 11 or 15 days it takes until we're next ready to function optimally and accomplish 20 or 24 or whatever days worth of stuff
even if it takes 40 days until you're next ready to be a Moses man and tackle the whole desert and speak to god. Even if it takes 42 days, and even Moses has to step aside and marvel at your stoicism.

well then just sleep!
its really simple when you think about it. Why fight it?
Think about the upside- you avoid days if not weeks of pain, how many issues you'll work through subconsciouslly (superconsciouslly?) while dozing away may even eclipse the number of issues in waking life, and therefore those insanely energized happy and focused days, you may have even MORE juice to go on, and really, when you think about it-

Your body doesn't need too much food when you sleep, eat a big meal before you go under, and a big one when you wake up.

I think when considering this as an option, we should focus on all of the great dreams, and practice that we'll have in those dreams !

I've been giving myself over to the practice of dreams lately, thanks to my buddy Dave at Zaadz, and also well, a lot of other things that are just pointing me that way, and funny enough I just saw, not knowing what it was about ahead of time, Waking Life this evening, (synchronicity) after having dreams last night that a psychologist would have had trouble touching.

They'd be like- hey man, I think that's a bit personal, and we both really know what that one means so, uh, why don't you just go home and, well, I think we're done here for now.
Wow crazy dreams.

So. Yeah. I'm going to sleep. If you don't see me for a month, you'll know why.